fate?

i am a v weak person.. exams r literally round the corner n i still found the energy to mope around wallowing in self-pity. so what if i'm dispensable to my strawberry milk tea? so what if i can't hold him the way i want to? so what if i can't expect calls n smses as much as i like? so what?!?!?! i can't do anything abt it anyway!!!

at least i still hv a nice someone to send "girl, i miss u" at indecent hrs of the morning (camps with unearthly waking hrs do tt to ppl). instead of the usual "pig pig, wake up le ma?", today's msg sorta left me revelling in the irony of it all. right wrds, wrong person? perhaps.

as i tried futilely to absorb bits of corporate finance, i finally gave into temptation (which is further proof of how weak i am) n binged on mushroom-flavoured pretz n expired strawberry hershley kisses. pathetic me. tsk tsk! =(

towards the evening, i headed to meet xinyu to vent my emo-ness at hans, marina sq. as usual, guards were having some ndp rehearsal thingy at the floating platform n typically, they wld get a couple of hrs off.. hehehe.

being in the mood for play, i attempted to hunt down weiming in the v big suntec city mall while forbidding him to cheat by telling me where he was in our smses.

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"he doesn't eat fast food n the army pay so measely.. they r prob at the foodcourt."
"hmmm, stocking up instant noodles at carrefour?"
"mayb he is looking for me in clothing shops???"

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anyway, i couldn't find him in any of the places i tot he wld be. all the while i was telling xinyu to look out for a bunch of NS men who wld be easily recognisable bcoz of their hair, or lack thereof. *evil laughter* lol. so just as i despaired n gave up, the dearie said, "lets go check out the arcade."

one step into the arcade n there he was. in the guards t-shirt, among many other similarly dressed guys crowded around a drum machine. boys will always be boys. o_0"

well, i grew excited, tugging at xinyu, gasping, "there there there!!" i dunno how i cld recognise his back view frm so many others but i suppose i just cld. n then i dialled his no. shouting into my hp, "I WIN, I FOUND YOU!!" haha.. lame ba?

then i played hide n seek around the arcade until he found me. for the first time, i stood in front of him, wearing specs n w/o make-up. but i bet i positively glowed when he said, "so cute! toot-toot de.." mayb i hv reached a stage where i no longer feel the need to impress.

=X

PC SHOW 2008

guo quan: "FREE LAPTOP.......... BROCHURE!"

anyway, today rounds up an exhausting n unfruitful 4 days at the PC SHOW 2008. unlike previous (equally tiring) exhibitions, tis particular show has not generated the range of income i hv become so accustomed to over the past few shows. in fact, i find the possibility of even earning $500 rather laughable.. =(

not only were the models bloody difficult to sell, our location sucked (no more at the entrance) n our pathetic commission was not halved but QUARTERED to a pathetic 5 bucks per piece! talk abt loss of motivation n fondness for 'eating snakes'.. *sulks big time*

however, i didn't emerge frm it all empty-handed lah.. coz i made some new frens n daddy dearest bought me.....



VGN-CR353G!!!!

mama: compaq hv exact same specs for $400 cheaper leh!
papa: but ah girl will love the brand n not to mention it being pink.


oh gosh!!!! HAPPY FATHER'S DAY DADDY! i love love love u!!! hehehe.. ^^



my new baby! *floats around*



isn't tis shade of baby pink just plain awesome?!

my severe lack of slp hv made me rather easily excitable i'm afraid. =X


anyway, big big thank you to the following ppl who made wrk tt slightly bit more bearable..


DAY 1

the fellow IT FAIR gang for the endless laughter n crapping.

junhong for tolerating all my ranting n tt-time-of-the-month moodswings.

the parents for bumming around aimlessly waiting to pick me up aft wrk. <3

DAY 2

adrian, weiming n xueqin's persistant smsing to pass idle time.

my darling xinyu's visit TWICE really brightened up my day the most.. not to mention the yami yoghurt treat!! *muackies*

gerald for my honey milk tea, supper of selegie soya beancurd n of course, the ride hm!

DAY 3



the lovely breakfast at big splash to jumpstart my day.

the parents who patiently forgave my fussiness in choosing the new lappy.

papa for being uber generous!! ^^

weiming for coming by with yucky liang cha n needless to say, sent me hm aft my really sinful mac cafe midnight brownie supper. =D

DAY 4

weiming n mama's repeated offers to pay for my cab fare n venti-sized i-need-to-indulge-myself starbucks dark mocha frappuccino.. woohoo~

i suppose they feel guilty for making me go hm alone. *grins* now who shld i claim the money from?!?! wahahaha!! =P


mayb the fair didn't make me feel so lousy afterall..... *heads off to bed*

the fortune teller told me i'm a fool in love.. i continue to do things i know is wrong not in attempt to improve my lot but just bcoz instinct made me do so. he predicts my naivity wld continue for quite awhile. when i screeched my disbelief indignantly, tiffany n cheeleng only stood by the side, shaking their heads in silent confirmation of the old man's revelation.

i tried to brush away wat he said but somehow those wrds kept creeping up on me.. boy, will i always be ur second best? i acknowledge my million flaws n all... but dun i hv gd pts too?

last night, weiming gave up the chase.
i cried.
tis morning, i found myself waiting for his usual sms tt nv came.
i felt lonely.
faraway in woodlands, i saw meridians.
such coincidence.
six hrs ago, i lost concentration during class n crashed the car (yes, i did).
i broke down again.
aft class, i went down to the temple on my own.
it failed to raise my spirits.
30 min ago, i threw away my dignity to a close fren.
i was called childish n possessive.

how true. by being possessive towards the old one, i lost a new chance for happiness.. i hv used a couple of guys to help get over some memories juz like how weiming started out - it sounds cruel but its the most effective method as xueqin so accurately pointed out. but more accurately, she said: "perhaps weiming somehow meant more to u then all the others did."

3 nights ago i was at cold rock with xueqin n tis song was playing.. i took down the lyrics n today, it felt so me.



i want to be brave too..

=(

i'm immensely dissatisfied with my w910i's camera function.. not only can i not zoom or flash, the photo quality is grainy n hv bad colour combi. zzz.. my n73 was not perfect but at least the photos look pretty decent. bahx.

i need my own digital cam n although some may comment tt the family olympus is quite a gd camera, trix has kinda monopolised the whole thing for some arty-fatty (lol!) reason.. =(

PROOF OF MY LAN LAN CAMERA PHONE!! -->



having lunch with the mother nv disappoints.. we tried the new jap marche-style restaurant at raffles city basement.. the crispy-thin pizza n omelette is goooood!! but by charging everything to a credit card looking thing, we ended up spending more than we intended to.



spent friday (30/05/08) with junhong who had just booked out frm camp.. we were supposed to hv dinner at bedok mkt but spoilt me decided to go to the club instead. =P

instead of eating at the regular cafe, we indulged n patronised ban heng court instead. fried seabass, claypot vegetables with assorted meat n crabmeat soup (taste like shark's fin). i was quite surprised the 2 of us cld finish everything we ordered n he cld even manage an extra serving of rice.

as it wasn't too late yet, we headed to the pool-side where there was a live band n my donut factory doughnuts for company. =D

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31/05/08

1) skin doc appt at cgh.
2) visited idp with xq..

accompanied the dearie n at the same time, enquired abt aussie schs i cld possibly attend shld i fail to to get local acceptance. i muz go to uni by hook or by crook!! argh! i dun buy TOTO n neither do i save.. how to find 100k sia?!

anyway, we got ourselves quite hopelessly lost twice - once with buses n again among big houses (which were all resort-looking n niceeee). n then, i got the indigeneous idea to hitchhike! we found ourselves a willing van but ever-so-safe xq was worried sick abt being caught n sold. hehe.. come to think of it, i'm kinda naive hur? POO!



aft returning to orchard, cheeleng came n mama called.. having juz cut her hair, she wanted my opinion n at the same time, treated my frens to tea. =)



1 wk into the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE n i hv spent $237.17! gosh.. n tt figure excludes the food n transport expenses incurred on every shopping trip (which so far hv amounted to just 2). i think it has to do with charging to the card n me not seeing the actual cash leaving my wallet. haiz.. credit is a v dangerous thing!



look, the sale even got me a little excited at the cocoa trees.. anyway, choc prices r rising so muz stock up. wahaha!



we didn't shop much as by 7.30pm the 3 of us went down to cityhall to meet other ppl.. weiming took me shopping n he paid for some of my splurges as if it was the most natural thing to do. awww... at night, i finally got to eat my sakae supper buffet!

it officially starts at 9.30pm n ends at 12 midnight but it pays to start queuing early. price-wise, its $19 nett n includes 1 red plate per person! sushi makes me happy.. =)



sunday afternoon, i checked out the new family-oriented downtown east mall again. tis time with junhong.. this is the 4 story high ferries wheel within the mall but i felt the $6.50 ticket price was too expensive. pls lah, the only view is tt of the open air carpark across the rd!?



he was the only grown-up in the queue for free popcorn. haha.. maids accompanying kids dun count. =P



as it neared 4.30pm, we headed down to dhoby ghaut to wait for cheeleng n keval.. there was a creepie crawlie exhibition at plaza sing!! n although bugs freak me out, i tot the butterfly exhibits were really pretty. ^^



at 6pm, we proceeded to the istana to watch the military police change-of-guard parade.. they had marched frm heeren to the president's official residence n there was an impressive gun-throwing performance by the spds.

tis performance is usually held on the first sunday of each mth n it was cool to hv an actual military police by my side giving me n the surrounding aunties a running commentary of their formations. heee.



aft the parade, the 4 of us took a long walk towards cineleisure to meet up with darren for dinner at the place sk recommended. the food was gd but the servings were quite small.. *greedy*

on our way towards cine, i ran into a v gd-looking kian yip.. men with a tan sure looks hotter. lol. the following is my night conversation with xq which left me rather pleased.. lalala~

me: today we met ur wu zhun look-alike!
xue: who?
me: the IT fair guy rmbr??
xue: ooooh! but i dun like 2 main things abt him though..
me: wat wat wat? *kaypo already*
xue: firstly, he wear specs!
me: but i think guys in specs look cute!! *indignant*
xue: okaaay.. then tt day he said "fuck".
me: huh? when?
xue: u know aft the show n we were walking towards the mrt while u went to bus stop?
me: uh-huh..
xue: he suddenly ask, "where is joy".
me: me?! then then?
xue: when we say u left liao, he shouted "fuck" n ran backwards in ur direction.
me: wahhh!! i rmbr he got call me aft tt but how come ur nv tell me before?
xue: i tot i did?
me: awww.. i rmbr we always time to take the same bus 12 to go to expo.. n he wld send me hm n ask what colour traffic light i was..
xue: huh?
me: red = attached. green = available.
xue: then u reply?
me: amber for "its complicated". wahahaha!! but really ma..
xue: oh man, he gd catch leh.. i also wanna aim him de but too bad, he wants to "fuck" u.
me: dots.

come to think of it, he used to say we hv couple phones coz we both happened to be using n73 at tt time.. but adrian deliberately bought an n73 juz to match mine! perhaps perhaps. =P



junhong looks like i bullied him.. why me u ask? coz only i dare to. muahahaha! (juz kidding ;P)



to end off, mei mei finally uploaded our mama's day treat for mommy dearest.. it worked out to us paying abt $44 each but mama had fun n the ambience was lovely. so everything's worthwhile =)

The Turquoise Room
7 Lock Road
Gillman Village
Tel. No. 6473 3655